|Apparently NST go a lot faster after downing |
Starburst to fight off blood sugar lows...
Go figure, sugar makes Baby active.
So I'll head back in again next week for another round of flaming hoops to waddle through and we'll go from there. If things continue as is, we'll be scheduling an induction (or c-section, depending on how things look at that point) for the week of Thanksgiving or the week after. While I am glad things are stabilized enough for the doctors to make such statements, I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I hope Baby arrives a bit sooner than that... the persistent concern for her safety, the continuation of increasingly painful contractions and the heart wrenchingly painful look of disappointment on my son's face when I tell him that no, I still cannot pick him up is just a lot to emotionally handle for another four or five weeks. Obviously I want her to be at a gestational age that is healthy for her to come out and I want to avoid the use of the NICU if we can, but as soon as those boxes are checked lets get this baby girl out and move on from pregnancy complications to new baby bliss.
In additional news, I also had an appointment yesterday with the Endocrinologist since the whole plan to fax in my logs completely fell flat. The nurse practitioner thoroughly reprogrammed my pump and decreased my insulin rates almost across the board. Two weeks ago my total daily basal rate amounted to 17.5 units and now it's back to 15.3 -- while that might not seem like a lot to those of you who are diabetic or understand insulin usage, it's a huge amount for someone like me who is so extremely insulin sensitive. She also adjusted my target blood glucose ranges to be slightly higher to ensure that I'm not dropping lower than I really need to -- so even if the 70s are "safe" to be in, why not shoot for the 80s or 90s and hope for better bg averages? Fair enough. I'll go back and see her in three weeks if my blood sugar stabilizes and maintains safe ranges, otherwise I'll see her sooner as necessary.
So... where does that leave me?
Well, at 33.5 weeks, it leaves me waiting for what's next and prepping the nursery, house and family for the arrival of Baby. I've been doing a bunch of research on diabetes and infant mothering (remember, I'm brand new to this combination) and it's amazing how intertwined the pancreas is to each of the choices I make and, since that little baby is entirely dependent on external care for quite some time, her overall well being. As this post is long enough as is, I'll save it for another day, but let it suffice to say that I'm generally overwhelmed by information overflow, physically uncomfortable, anxious for safe delivery and ready to get this show on the road... Granted ready for Baby and ready for Hurricane Sandy are two very different things, but let's just hope that Baby understands that things have been complicated enough as is without being born during the - to quote the Washington Post - most "unprecedented and bizarre" storm that "may be unlike anything the region has ever experienced." We'll see how that goes.